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I just came back from Munkkivuori and I'm soooo tired. I've been tired for a couple of days already and it doesn't go away cause I never manage to get enough sleep. I'm such a piece of shit. These last few years ... seems like I've forgotten when's the right time to go to bed, I'm killing myself if I go on like this.

Today there was this YFU-evening for the parents whose children are now abroad as exchange students. Some of those parents were really annoying, they just kept on complaining and they didn't listen to what we said to them. We also never got to discuss some really important topics we had planned for the evening cause these assholes took all our time with their stupid questions. People say there are no stupid questions - well, I disagree, there are so many stupid questions people can ask. I usually ask many stupid questions. Anyway, we pretty much just stood there, in front of those parents (they were about 100). I got to say something two times, Paula, Jasmiini, Sini and I had nothing to do and nothing to say. I didn't even dare to open my mouth cause I knew I would have said something really impolite. So Kaisa spoke the most of the time and tried to be polite to those assholes. And I even canceled that fucking piano lesson for this.

Now I'm just frustrated and tired and so pissed off. I couldn't stand the way they just complained about everything that had something to do with the things YFU has done, and everybody disliked YFU Chile. They wondered why YFU Finland doesn't have contact with those area representatives the exchange students have in their host countries. How could YFU Finland stay in contact with those hundreds of area representatives? I don't wanna be rude, but honestly. Come on. Like they had nothing else to do.

I don't really know why but I always take it personally when someone says something bad about YFU. I guess it's all quite important to me. Just received an e-mail from Kaisa, it really made me smile.
I also received one from Annika. <3 :D Actually I've received so damn many mails lately and I should answer them. Maybe tomorrow.

Arrgh I'll do everything tomorrow, just not tonight. I thought I could visit a German class tomorrow so I could get my essay back. The teacher wanted to copy it for something, dunno. She's really nice but her classes are boring, that's why I don't go there. Maybe German classes are just meant to be boring, it's just their destiny. :D Too bad.
I always feel bad when I see my classmates go to the German class and I'm on my way home. I feel like I should be there, too.

A dance class wouldn't be bad now. I could go dancing after school tomorrow since I got no other plans, if there only is a dance class in the schedule for Wednesday. I hope I promised to meet Ilona and Maria on Thursday, not on Friday. Iaiks. Why do I always forget everything. There was something else on Thursday, too. At least I think so.

Blah. I'm messed up as usual.