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I don't know what to do now. I'm not really sure whether my host family in Hannover knows I'm coming to see them and that I'm gonna stay the whole week at their place. Shit. I don't wanna go there like "hey, look who's back". I think it wouldn't be a problem with Martina (host mom) and Lena (host sister, 17 years old) but my host dad Wolfgang wouldn't like it. He won't. He hates me. Or maybe he doesn't hate me but he doesn't like me, we were never that close. After that whole fucking year I spent in his home he just shook hands with me and said "tschüß". That really hurt me. At the beginning of the year I really thought he's just shy and I really thought I'd get to know him a little better but it never got better and we actually never talked with each other. He only talked to me when I had done something wrong or I had to pay the phone bill. I think I was just a nightmare to him cause I'm always so messed up and I never do anything in time and I tend to act quite spontaniously. And I talk and laugh loud and I love doing new stuff, meeting new people and those things make me the opposite of him. Even if he liked me just a little, he'd never show or tell me that. I don't understand how someone can be such an.. unemotional person. So cold.
Tomorrow I'll write them but I still don't know whether it's better if I write to Martina instead of Wolfgang. It just feels like a bad idea to tell Wolfgang in a mail that I'm coming in 1,5 weeks. :D He'd just get an heart attack or something. :D

Oh man I don't know. I really need to do something about this.

The weekend. Finally. I thought this week was never gonna be over. :D I've acted like a fucking retard this week and I've been way too tired. Well, I've had fun, as usual. I always have fun cause I'm so damn stupid.

Whoa. Inari called me today after school and picked me up from Herttoniemi and we went to Ikea. She wanted to bring some stuff back she had bought and we didn't really go shopping or anything, that was pretty stupid (well, I didn't even expect we'd do that this time). Ikea is awesome. And I used to go there a lot when I was in Germany - I bought rusks (Zwieback) cause the German rusks are so different, I mean, the ones you can buy in a supermarket. Or at least the ones we used to buy at Netto.

Since then I've only ... cleaned up the house. Inari had to go to Tampere and she didn't have time to do the vacuum-cleaning so I did a part of it, and I cleaned up the kitchen and blahblah. And I chilled out. And listened to some music. And mom and dad came and we ate some dinner - I wonder where Sampo is.

Today I found this song (for the piano) I have never seen or heard before. It's so beautiful. I just have to learn how to play it. I played it probably for about two hours today, I just fell in love with it. :D Thank God it's easier than the one we're playing with my piano teacher. I just hate that song cause I won't learn how to play it. A difficult rhythm and 5 fucking b's.

Well. Now I'm gonna go for a walk. Still no real plans for tomorrow, except that I'm going to a SatsFlow-class with my mom. :D I really need that Sats-membership. As soon as possible.
Actually I'm starting to feel like staying at home tomorrow could be a good plan. I could ask some friends to come over and we could cook something and stuff like that. The more I think about it, the better it sounds. No partying this weekend, I've had enough of it for a while.

Why is Fabi the only one who updates those Wooloomooloo-sites? He never writes me back when I leave a message. Well, I guess he lets Simon and Thimo know I've written something cause Simon seems to answer me sometimes. Like a couple of weeks later. :D Still. Those "Spastis" (just kidding, I love you guys) never online at msn, I think they don't have a computer yet, or an internet connection or whatever.

Today we planned the Amazing Race Helsinki for our exchange students with Maria and Ilona at Wayne's. It took only about 2 hours. Well, we're not quite ready yet but we got the most important things ready now. Theoretically, at least. I hope the exchange students are gonna like it. We got different points in the city center where they have to do different tasks in small groups and in the end the best group will get a prize. The task with "send the most ugly post card you can find to Sampsa in KITTEE" is absolutely my favorite task. :D I'd like to see the look on his face when he receives a couple of Christmas cards written in bad Finnish. We also told the exchange students to ask how his hamster's doing. I wonder whether he's got one. :D Haha! He's gonna like it. He felt like Juha got more attention from the girls at Virrat so he really needs this. Poor guy. :DD

Greaaat. All of my things just keep on disappearing. I'm such a mess. I've lost my favorite CD. Or something like that. Oh maaaan. ):

Hmm. We need to find something to do for the weekend. I got no plans at all. :D Or for the Sunday afternoon, I guess, but I was more like talking about tomorrow and Saturday evening. I hope Noora's coming to school tomorrow, she likes planning stuff and she's always got the greatest ideas. :D

I go to bed now.